Don't hide

*only suitable for those who are in same shoe (same situation), don't read if you can't take it.
how could that possibly be?
what I meant was, "how could a person (someone older) asking you to eat what you don't like or want to eat."
I mean, you have your own wants and don'ts, you can't simply compromise to please others!
You have the right, you have what it takes to say NO! You have to make your own choice (even babies would cry if they don't get what they want or got what they don't want)

Respect the older ones? Yes, but (*HELLO! please be awake from your dreams/lies that you've believed in for so long) One day, you have to rise up, step out, and make your own decision. Do what is right! Don't hide!

I was hiding when doing something I want / like / needed to do, and (against what the older one, who'd been ordering me to do something I don't want / like), somehow, suddenly, this older one (being a busy body at home appear beside me while I was sipping the soup & noodle), I "jumped", shocked, because I thought I could hide while enjoying loud speaker songs. Standing beside me, the older one asked, "Do you eat what I've served for you just now?" I said, "No, I passed it to the maid", then I added, "You want to know what happened to it then ask the maid." (Well, I just giving face for saying that, although she suspected that the meal that was served for me earlier was in the rubbish bin - I don't know anything, what I know is I passed it to the maid)

So, it was exposed, I really can't hide what I'm doing. (Good one, at least you know what I don't like to eat) Actions speak louder than words this time. Good thing I was exposed, and thank God for leading the old one to meet me while I was eating something not cooked by her. (Although I was a bit petrified, scared). I'm just doing what I want to do. I don't like it when someone control me even of what I eat...that is a bit too much! You can give your opinion, but don't control me, I don't like being controlled.

Immediately, I heard God says, "Don't hide, just be yourself!" What a good one from God, I really have to be courageous and let no others control my life! I should end the life of pleasing others by pleasing God.

I don''t care being exposed, you want to see what am I doing, you want to know what am I writing, I'm bold enough to be exposed, see what you like to see, I understand it's hard to change the behaviour after so long that you being a "busy body" in this house. I'm used to it. I have no right to control what you like to do.

It was so annoying, can you imagine? when you are eating halfway that someone with huge eyeballs looking at you with some kind of expression. Then, at the same time this someone will comment and "order" you by saying, "Please finish this vege, please finish that, please at least eat two pieces of chicken." I don't know how do you feel when someone say that in the midst of your eating, but I was really annoyed by that. I'm so sorry to say, it really pissed me off!

I wasn't angry, just releasing some sentences after being patience for many years...this is just one of it, why is it so difficult be polite and etiquette while eating? You can use finger for finger food, but main course / food which are served and meant for the whole family to share, you still use your finger? I mean then what are the uses of cutleries? no purpose? living in this high-technology / modern time, we could possibly use what is needed to achieve what we want. Why is it so hard to use fork & spoon? The food is meant for sharing, and you are using your hand to touch it, it's fine if the pieces of food that you've touched, you eat it. However, it wasn't hygienic when you touch the food with your fingers and you don't eat it! If other people see what you've done, do you think the other person would eat what you've touched? More gross, if someone sees you not only touch, but flipped, turned the pieces of food with your fingers. You can do all these while you are eating on your own and the food already at your own plate. I don't mind.

  
Disclaimer: I'm just releasing what had happened in my house, or what has been happening daily.