Relaxing...

What are you thinking when this word come into your mind?
Yes, the word is RELAX....
sandy beach? wind blowing? sleep? massage? etc. etc.

It was a fine morning, 'sneaking' out from house early in the morning fetch people...
I guess it was the call, and I said, "Yes, Lord."
Though it's not a bad thing to fetch people, but early in the morning is like, "err?"
The consequences will be, not enough quality sleep, spoils your beauty, health, which eventually leads to aging (Opps..I guess this is too extream!) ...

I was scheduled to fetch dad 4 am in the morning to LCCT, it ends up I'm getting the quality sleep...THANKS to my 2nd sis who sacrificed her quality sleep...poor her...well she did slept after she came back...this was when I woke up 8 plus in the morning...and I was so surprised when I saw she's still lying on the bed with my eldest sis in the same room...(I thought both of you supposed to be in LCCT, at this time!?), I didn't yell out loud though, I just whispered gently in surprising manner, "Hey, why both of you still here? I thought..." I cut it off by my own as I saw they were waking up in hurry...I quickly went to get myself ready, I'm scheduled to send them to LCCT previously, but without knowing the reason, 2nd sis drove to KL Sentral (4 of us: 2 sisters, 1 her friend, & me) & I drove back by my own...well, immediate changes of plan..seems good for me because I don't need to sacrifice my quality sleep & rushing for the next meet at Times Square...the timing is just nice! :) in the nick of time...(I feel good *smile* when I could make it on time, for anything raging from not important to important events..great...)

Well, since I've got my 1st P licence, journeyed until I renewed/received competent licence...many past experiences...which brought me tears, and even worst, depression (this is extream, maybe not that serious in reality). I realized I never stop driving since I got my 1st P licence (also many accidents happened during the 2 years trial). Ever since, I received my competent licence, my driving skill improved! Maybe I'm more careful after all the accidents...it shows that I learned from experiences...well still got a lot to learn for a young driver like me...This proved that 2 years is just nice for trial...(with condition that you drive regularly) or maybe when you grow older, you will be more careful, will take care of people's life...(this depends on individuals).

I'm going too far...I wanted to relax so badly from driving...I realized, I couldn't...because I'm so used to drive every day to & from school, fetch little bro, some friends, my sisters, my aunt, mom. (on and off) ...was thinking long for time to change the reality that I no longer be the driver...just driver...

Still crapping...(those were real...though I'm crapping, I'm always crap what is happening in reality)...

So, it was a fine morning at 11th floor, I could feel the wind blowing strongly from outside into the room...I can't imagine myself sleeping on other people's bed (don't get me wrong, it's a single bed without owner just for that morning)...it was 6 am...outside was dark, still not sleepy...I did read Bible (devotion) for ~1 hour...then I decided to sleep...it was the longest ever I devoted, I guess... in the cool evironment, I try to sleep wearing my socks & sweater with hood...

as I awaken..it's like another day...of course not! I know what am I doing and I'm conscious that it's reality, yes, I slept on other people's bed for ~2 hours..not bad...(I mean, it's a quality sleep, though it's just 2 hours nobody disturebed)...I hope the owner don't mind...thanks for the room mate who allowed me to sleep there...(I hesitated in the beginning, but I ended up slept for ~2 hours *laughing at myself*)...because nothing more I could do during that period because the room mate was asleep...I was asked to wake her up at 9.00 a.m. and I promised, yes I did! Though it's few minutes late...still I woke her up...nothing can be better than getting the promise fulfilled...*smile* (better late than never...this I learned from my foreign friend)...I'm taking time seriously now...as I did in the past...and I'm doing it now, & so will be in the future...still making 'better late than never' to enable me to attend places late than never appear at all! or MIA (missing in action)...

Oh ya, my story of relaxing 'hanging' half way there...I was saying...as she awaken then, I think it's time for me to leave...she woke up and did what she supposed to do...and I'm sure in very short time someone will come and accompany her...as she said so, so I left in a peaceful manner...without forgetting what I've planned earlier in the morning even before 6 a.m. which was having breakfast in McD!...I finally realized that I really enjoy myself having breakfast in McD...so reaxing...for the first time, I drove myself to new opened McD at Jalan Cheras, opposite roads of Midah garden, where I live...just reached few minutes before 11 a.m. cool...last minute breakfast (RM 4.20 including tax)...not only the food itself that I'm enjoying, also the environment...good that the staffs (waiter/waitress) didn't really bother or 'busy' about what the customer is doing (they are not supposed to do that, still I could see some sceptical eyes watching over the customers)...I like this place because of the design, and environment, also the variety of music they played...I believed those music are meant to be played in McD only...(just songs & McD ads)...not even a DJ or other ads...listening to the music I enjoyed reading the book titled 'Walking with God' by John Elderedge...really an inspiring piece...it's the New York Best-Selling Author.

First time in my life I felt so relaxed, it's so real that I feel so RELAXED (honestly)...maybe I've found what I really like to do...would like to do it again...the limitation is that when I feel the urge to go and release in toilet...that's the only thing that distract the relaxation...I felt so great that I forgotten that I actually 'sneaked' out from house early in the morning...was guilty but not get 'caught'...well, reached home never thought my sisters were at home when they are not supposed to (they should be at work at that time!) weird...and I think, and think...no wonder...it's Saturday! No, it wasn't, it's Friday...as usual I have no class on Friday...both of my eldest sisters working from home (the previlege they've from their company, my 3rd sis always jealous about their previleges), another sister well (3rd sis, my room mate), she's sick (indirectly) 'taking leave from office', (opps..this is not true! I mixed with another episode, it did happened but not that day)...yes, she was in her office...still I expected myself to be home alone, good enough there is people in the house, & YES! I'm in room alone...well most of the time I'm...nothing fancy about it...anyway, never really experince home alone...because my house is 'filled' with maid all the time...it's good to know that someone is at home...*wink* It's a pleasure to have someone at home all the time...at least you know the house is 'occupied'...
though the relaxing time in McD was just ~2 hours, I did felt God's presence while reading the book...so, I'm not alone spiritiually but of couse (physically,technically no one that I know is with me at that time...and I do like it, (you know) when the time is right...at the mean time practising solitude...)

I would say this chance comes once in a lifetime, grab it as you can! Yes, and I did! It's such a great thing that I've done in my life...

So, pals...don't miss it! It's once in a lifetime experience...yours might be different thing...but as for me, this is the thing...
enjoy your life! :)

teaching on Passion??

not only Passion, also act on Anger, Fear, Aloof, & Happiness

Aloof = Distant physically or emotionally; reserved and remote; cool, detached; distant, standoffish; snobbish, haughty, disdainful.

funny acts, have a big laugh on it!

this video showed what was happening before the video 'How to show Passion?' on previous post

How To Show Passion II?

This is just longer than the previous video, with Chinese subtitle, and more crazy actions!! Plus emotional unstable...poor Kahlen...

How To Show Passion?

...how do you overcome it?

...it was really a bad experience when things doesn't seems right...and it doesn't go with what you've planned earlier or events happened unexpectedly or just the decision made is not on your side (you lose in argument/discussion)...or maybe just you didn't get the favor...well, people always say let by gone be by gone...somehow people just can't let go so easily... (forgiveness is the key)...forgetting is another thing...

it's really bad when the event was set and promise was made the day before, yet the next day...one of the party forget about it or he/she just didn't take it as a serious matter as the other party did...this eventually leads to the feelings of being rejected, betrayed, that leads to hatred, disappointment...sadness

surely many face this situation...what matter is how do you overcome it? (dear readers, this question is meant for you to answer...no judgment just brainstorming...just say what is in your mind as you see this question...better if you could share your experience)

well...tears were shed (luckily no blood shedding)...some might shed blood (you might not know!)
what need to be shared already shared...what is not necessary was kept (silence)
the truth was told, the lie was kept
but what is true in your eyes are not true in people's eyes...
perspectives are very important...
some thinks it's rational and some thinks it's not...
just like answering questions...yes or no? why and why not?
troubles come, problems solved (positively/negatively)...

one day, you could have all the happiness that you want in the beginning of the day but how about the end of the day? if it's a happy ending, it's good...how if it's an unhappy ending?
at the end of the day, when you summarize what you have been through the whole day, you will realize there are some negatives in positives or vice versa (just like yin & yang - balanced the positives & negatives)

God bless everyone & take time to review what you have been through in your life...
Have a nice day!