Coughing for about 3 months

I have been coughing for about 3 months since 11 June 2024.

I went to consult doctor on 14 June 2024, continued seeing doctors in different clinics almost once a month.

Taken medicines, finish the course of medicines, feel like almost recovered, but in between mix with other traditional medicines and supplements, did not recover fully. 

Work continues as usual, did not think of anything serious about it. Wearing mask to work daily. 

Experiencing skin allergy almost daily in the evening, sill unsure what is it about (could be allergy to fish, and egg?).

I have been seeing doctors, they confirmed that it is not COVID-19, not tuberculosis, it was bronchitis. However, I think I have recovered from it. Not sure how is it that I am still coughing occasionally causing pain at my sides. I do not know how long more I need to endure coughing until I fully recovered from it.

Hello by Lionel Richie

 

I did not expect the official music video is such that it further emphasizes the meaning of this song.

Here is the lyric:

I've been alone with you inside my mind

And in my dreams I've kissed your lips a thousand times

I sometimes see you pass outside my door

Hello, is it me you're looking for?

I can see it in your eyes, I can see it in your smile

You're all I've ever wanted and my arms are open wide

'Cause you know just what to say, and you know just what to do

And I want to tell you so much, I love you

I long to see the sunlight in your hair

And tell you time and time again how much I care

Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow

Hello, I've just got to let you know

'Cause I wonder where you are and I wonder what you do

Are you somewhere feeling lonely or is someone loving you?

Tell me how to win your heart, for I haven't got a clue

But let me start by saying, I love you

Hello, is it me you're looking for?

'Cause I wonder where you are and I wonder what you do

Are you somewhere feeling lonely or is someone loving you?

Tell me how to win your heart, for I haven't got a clue

But let me start by saying, I love you

I love you

I love you

Is it me you're looking for?

Hello, is it me you're looking for?

'Cause I wonder where you are and I wonder what you do

Are you somewhere feeling lonely or is someone loving you?

Tell me how to win your heart, for I haven't got a clue

But let me start by saying, I love you

I love you

I love you

Hello, is it me you're looking for?

Is it me, is it me, is it me

Is it me you're looking for?

Is it me, is it me

Perfect by Simple Plan

 

I woke up and thought of this song: Perfect by Simple Plan, here is the lyrics:

Hey, Dad, look at me

Think back, and talk to me

Did I grow up according to plan?

And do you think I'm wasting my time

Doing things I wanna do?

But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it

I just want to make you proud

I'm never gonna be good enough for you

Can't pretend that I'm alright

And you can't change me

'Cause we lost it all

Nothin' lasts forever

I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Now it's just too late

And we can't go back

I'm sorry I can't be perfect

I try not to think

About the pain I feel inside

Did you know you used to be my hero?

All the days you spent with me

Now seem so far away

And it feels like you don't care any more

And now I try hard to make it

I just wanna make you proud

I'm never gonna be good enough for you

I can't stand another fight

And nothing's all right

'Cause we lost it all

And nothin' lasts forever

I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Now it's just too late

And we can't go back

I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said

And nothing's gonna make this right again

Please don't turn your back

I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you

But you don't understand

'Cause we lost it all

And nothin' lasts forever

I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Now it's just too late

And we can't go back

I'm sorry I can't be perfect

'Cause we lost it all

And nothin' lasts forever

I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Now it's just too late

And we can't go back

I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Just the Way You Are by Billy Joel

I have been listening to this song when it is played on the radio. This phrase, "I don't want clever conversation" reminded me that it is something I am looking for in a conversation, which is not a clever one, but an honest and truthful conversation. Hope you enjoy the song as much as I do.

Just the Way You Are by Billy Joel

Here is the lyrics:

  

Don't go changing to try and please me

You never let me down before, mmm

Don't imagine you're too familiar

And I don't see you anymore

I would not leave you in times of trouble

We never could have come this far, mmm

I took the good times, I'll take the bad times

I'll take you just the way you are

Don't go trying some new fashion

Don't change the color of your hair, mmm

You always have my unspoken passion

Although I might not seem to care

I don't want clever conversation

I never want to work that hard, mmm

I just want someone that I can talk to

I want you just the way you are

I need to know that you will always be

The same old someone that I knew

Oh, but what will it take till you believe in me

The way that I believe in you?

I said I love you, that's forever

And this I promise from the heart, mmm

I couldn't love you any better

I love you just the way you are, right

I don't want clever conversation

I never want to work that hard, mmm

I just want someone that I can talk to

I want you just the way you are

Can You Hear

 

Like this song recently...

Here is the lyrics:

Can you hear me

Whispering your name?

Do you feel me

Lying beside you?

Even though we're apart

Can you hear my beating heart? 

It's sending a message to you 

Can you hear me

Calling out your name?

In that moment

Hoping we will treasure 

How she drifted us apart

That space in my heart

Will always be a heaven for you 

Please don't go

Please don't go

When we lie together 

Hearts keep time forever 

Oh Please don't go

Please don't go away

Please tell I'd like to know can you hear me? 

Can you hear me

Whispering your name?

Do you feel me

Lying beside you?

Even though we're apart

Can you hear my beating heart? 

It's sending a message to you 

Can you hear me

Crying out your name?

In that moment

Reflect in each other 

Shall we pick up the parts? 

That space in my heart

Can only hold a picture of you 

Please don't go

Please don't go

When we lie together 

Hearts keep time forever 

Oh Please don't go

Please don't go away

Please tell I'd like to know can you hear me?

Wrapped in your arms 

Safe from love's harm 

When we lie together 

Hearts could cry forever 

I need you tonight 

In darkness I fight 

Please tell I'd like to know can you hear me?

The old has gone, the new has come

The old thing has gone...

The old thing passing away...

The new thing has come...

200th post

Time has passed and it's 200th post now.

Looking at the past is like when you are driving you look at the rear mirror. 

Looking at the future is like when you are driving you look in front.

Things that you carry in your car is like the baggage that you carry in your life.

What is it that you carry today?

How does it feel when you stop carrying the baggage?

It comes to a point where you surrender everything to God.

Some people quoted, "Let go, and let God."

Thanks be to God who has answered my prayers, it is painful to feel cheated and at loss in term of material things, thank God that in due time the material things that were lost was found and returned to its owner. To God be the glory. 

The Lord is My Salvation by Keith & Kristyn Getty

Listening to this song, it is meaningful.

Thanks for visiting this page. :)

Pleasure and Pain at the Cinema

When watching movie in a cinema become pleasure and pain at the same time.

Watching movie in a cinema is usually a pleasure for majority but for me it is a pain after 2 hours of sitting without moving much.

I realized that I have pain on my left knee after 2 hours of watching movie in the cinema, which makes my walking difficult after a movie. It is not numb, but only pain on my left knee.

I knew that my knee injured in the last due to a few incidents at home, it could be the accumulation of incidents causing the pain. But, those incidents happened many years ago but didn't seem to give me problem other than the pain during run.

I have not consult doctor for the pain on my left knee. I welcome any advice which maybe helpful for me. Thanks for reading.

What happened to you?

The first FAQ that was asked was:
What happened to you?
I showed my finger and I said, "the car's..." (lost of words).

Then, the second Q: Was it slammed by car's door?

No! Scalded by the car's cigarette lighter's point.

Oh no! Hold on...

Doctor's advice is to put the 'burnt' finger on running water once it got burnt (I did that once I reached clinic), and do not apply chemicals such as toothpaste, soy sauce, etc. to release the pain (it wouldn't help).

Then, doctor put my 'burnt' finger on the cream to release pain. I felt a bit relieved after that, and I took medicine (painkiller), immediately.

 
 

The Joy of Driving

Being a driver is not an easy task, especially it is for a long journey trip. You are responsible for your passengers' life. Ensuring you have enough rest and to be fit as a driver.

I embraced becoming driver in the past two long journey trips which I joined together with ex-colleagues, from two different companies. I truly enjoyed those moments. I managed to drive from KL-Ipoh, Ipoh-KL, and KL-Cameron Highlands, Cameron Highlands-KL.
I felt the sense of achievement and the joy of driving.

Interesting diagnosis

I find it surprising when a medical doctor diagnosed someone with anxiety instead of the physical pain that the person had.

It makes me pondered on the below questions:
Is it the doctor's awareness on mental health has increased?
Or
Is it true that sometimes, physical pains are caused by mental & emotional pains (such as stress and anxiety)?

Blessed - twice!

I was looking at it at the counter but I didn't order it but I ordered another slice of cake instead...but then it came to me to my table by surprise when the waiter said,"this is free from the boss." I was so happy! Words can't explain how happy I was, feeling so blessed with the free dessert! Then another waiter came by and said, "Shall I heat it so it taste better?" Go ahead! So it was heated, the ice on top melted. It tasted so good!

This is how it look like when the ice melted.

Then, another blessing come when a free bubble tea was given with an order of only one bubble tea, it's like buy 1 free 1 for no reason (of course I knew the reason, but then it can't be revealed).

We enjoyed time and moments spent together, indeed God is good all the time, and all the time God is good!

We were thanking God and praising Him all the way! Happiest moment is to be able to celebrate birthdays together, though it was belated! Best belated birthday gift! So happy to see someone is happy at the same time. :) It is good to celebrate happy moments together!

Memorable day: 28.06.2017

I hurt my elbow

It has been a while since the last time I hurt myself physically by accident.
I hurt my elbow today, I can still feel it now while typing.
Though it hurts but I still continue to do what is necessary for the day.
I do felt helpless when my elbow hurts, and it is my right elbow that is hurting now (big sigh).

Remembering the Lost

Sometimes remembering the lost can be hurtful, especially he or she is someone close to you.

Crying and grieving are normal.

When I was asked how was your Chinese New Year (CNY)? I paused and said, "This year was different, because it's not like previous years." One day before CNY reunion eldest aunt from my father's side passed away. As I recalled on new year's Sunday, someone asked, "How are you?" I broke to tears remembering the death of my cousin on last Christmas night. And recently, my uncle from mother's side passed away. Last Sunday, someone asked, how did your parents take it? I guess accepting it is the best thing to do.

Three of them left because of cancer. Therefore, take good care of your health people!

Knowing that death is certain, fear shall not fill you anymore. In Christian's faith, what's next after death is heaven is waiting for you to continue to serve and glorify God there together with Jesus Christ.

Buddhists say that after death there will be reincarnation -  what you become in the "next life" depends on your deeds on earth.  

I truly believe that, "Jesus Christ is the the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Him (Jesus Christ)." - quoted from the bible John 14:6

And, "For by grace that you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast. For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them." quoted from the bible Ephesians 2:8-10 (English Standard Version).

Thanks for reading.

Only Love Strangers by Faye Wong

Here I present to you:  Only Love Strangers by Faye Wong.

I like the part when her baby girl laughing at the background. :)

10th Anniversary

Hello people,

I just realized that I haven't been blogging in the past one (1) year, which is the whole 2016.

Guess what? The good news is I accepted Christ (say sinner's prayer & became a Christian) 10 years ago - I can't recall which date but I knew it was second week of January 2007, I remembered it was at my friend's house that those two ladies led me to say or pray the sinner's prayer to accept Jesus Christ as my personal Lord and Saviour.

My life has been transformed since then, I became more vocal than the 'me' in the  past. However, I still remained as the cool lady or some people termed me as 'zen' when I met people (strangers) for the first time.     

Many things happened in the the past 10 years, I was really thankful for the two ladies who led me to pray sinner's prayer, they are now married women, where one is a mother of a little girl and another one planning to be a mother (I am so happy for them). What about me? I still remain single and available. 

Thanks for reading and sharing this joy with me.

Goodbye for now. 

God bless you!

Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow

To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow,
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day,
To the last syllable of recorded time;
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools
The way to dusty death. 
Out, out, brief candle!
Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player,
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,
And then is heard no more. 
It is a taleTold by an idiot, 
full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing.


Poem by William Shakespeare

The first line has been playing in my mind for quite sometime.
I supposed the title of the poem is Life's Brief Candle.

Do the best while you are still on earth as you could, until one day when you are called to leave the earth, leaving a good legacy behind is what you really can do.

Life and death is truly unpredictable.
Have you ever wonder what legacy will you be leaving on earth after you departed?

Left knee again?

Home incident does happen, and it happened to me twice to the same body part: left knee.

When I shared this to a friend, she gave the expression of, 'Why it happened at home, instead of outdoor places like hills or on the roads?' This response gave me an impression that home incident are not supposed to happen, especially to me who looks as if I am an adventurous lady who like to do outdoor activities more than indoor chores. LOL at myself.

On 24th April 2014.

It happened when I was at home after work about 7.00 p.m. or later, I was wearing a pair of wet toilet slippers and quicken my footsteps rushing into my room to get something. I was in rush for two reasons: first is to rush for a meeting at church, secondly is to rush to do body jam (as my sister was waiting). At the moment when I reached the entrance of my room, I stopped my steps and wanted to step into my room. In the midst of stopping my steps, I realized that I was slipping backward, but my body automatically responded by leaning forward. In the midst of this, my phone was ringing and I intended to step in to pick up the phone but I fell forward instead. I fell right at the entrance of my room.

I had a combination of the feelings of unpleasant, uncertain, and unexpected. I was about to blackout right after my left knee knocked on the tiled-floor while my right arm rubbed against the floor. I lost my hearing and sight at that moment, feeling fearful and had minimal cold sweats. 

I do not remember when did I took my mobile phone and checked who called and as I tried to open my eyes, I am not able to do, I think I slowly crouched towards my bed and lied on my bed resting for a while.

While resting, my phone rang again, I was not able to pick up the phone as I am not able to stand up nor open my eyes, I could only hear the ringing of phone feeling helpless. Feeling the aftermath of blackout, I slowly stand up and do the necessary to return call and messages. Then, I prepared myself to bath.

I did not feel the pain on my knee until I put ice-bag on it, it was according to the first aid book, that I should put the ice-bag on my knee as it was bruising, and it helps reducing the swells. I did the same to my right arm as well. My first respond when I fell was, 'I hurt my left knee again!'

I do not remember whether did I knocked my head, and it remained mystery until now. I consulted doctor the next afternoon and asked why does blackout happened when my injuries seems not severe outwardly. The doctor simply replied by saying that, "It was too painful at that time, thus you almost blackout."

Then, I realized that yes it is true and logic that my body react in a way to make me blackout so that I will not feel the pain that was unbearable at that time. I felt relieved after consulting doctor. I received two types of creams to apply to my knee and arm and two types of painkiller.

Besides sharing what happened, I want to extend my thanks to XY who fetched my to CG on last Friday night, and MM & A who fetched me to BU on Saturday night. I felt blessed to have such brother and sisters in Christ who showed hospitality to me. :D Also want to thank my sis who fetched me to work & to clinic. Thanks to all who prayed and praying for me, I am experiencing healing. Thank God for His healing to sustain me, that Thursday night after a along rest and battling to whether attend meeting or consult doctor, as I was bathing, I worship the Lord by singing songs of praise. I never blame anyone or anything for what happened, it must be God and Holy Spirit working in me. 

Thanks again for all who concerned, cared, and prayed for me.

Faith (Percaya)

I was listening to this song from the radio station: Lite FM & I like it.

Then, I searched in Youtube for the video, to realized that it was a song written by Malaysian's artists as a tribute to MH370, great song! Touched by the lyrics & music. Attached are the English & Malay versions of the song.